Feel oh soooo good

I walked to work this morning 5.14km and did it in 55 mins, couldn't do any running with my backpack filled with work clothes, but I managed to burn 346 calories YAY I feel so good, I feel like I have unleashed my inner warrior. I am even thinking of going to the gym today for my strength training workout and then walking home again this afternoon YAY feel sooo good. I have to share something funny though as I was about to get in the shower I left my towel at home so dry off I was kind of doing the hokey pokey dance to wiggle myself dry hahahahaa I was laughing at myself.

I also weighed myself because I know my scales at home are incorrect, but then again they are correct for my husband's weight, it is dead right all the time.... So i tested it on the Tanita Scales and I was 63.7kg and at home I average around 61.5-62kg or 65.5kg, it is never consistent.... So I think the Tanita Scales are correct and I will just use the ones at work until I can afford to get some. Money is just really tight at the moment. I am still going to stick to the meal plans and do what I need to do so I can budget the foods required etc. My body is important to me and I want to feed it nutritious and delicious foods that are good for me I don't want to fill it with rubbish.

Yesterday I smashed it at the gym I worked so hard and managed to burn 322 calories which I know isn't enough because I need to aim for 500 calories, but it is just amazing, it is like a light bulb just went off in my head and said "you can do this, unleash you inner warrior and just do it" and just like that I have this new found energy and love for exercise and look forward to it. I feel addicted to exercise, keep thinking about it, dreaming about it, oh yeah and I am dreaming about food too, mostly about the meal plan and preparation soooo funny!!!

Ok, enough from me, I am at work now, so I better get some work done now.

I'm excited!!!

Just a quick post I know I have already posted today, but I just wanted to share my enthusiasm for my week ahead. I really can't wait to get on that treadmill tomorrow and have a great workout. I have my music and ready to go. If it wasn't too late I would go out now.... I need to rest my back anyway before tomorrow, sore lower back, sooo need to see my osteopath but trying to save money. I will go as soon as I get paid this week me thinks. I had a hot bath with epsom salts and essential oils it was fantastic, soooo relaxing. Read Oxygen Magazine while in the bath. So good to read inspirational and motivational stories. I feel so alive and ready.  I also don't have my son at home so I have more time to myself tonight. I think I will go put on Masterchef and relax. 

Night all, have a great week 7, hope you smash it :) xx

Week 7 all organised :)

I have cooked up my Indian Chickpea soup ready for 4 days of lunches YAY Healthy snacks will be Tamara Valley Yoghurts, fruit and rice cakes.  Looking forward to this week's menu plan, so many yummy things and I feel so happy because I have bought all the ingredients I need so I am armed and ready to go.

Yesterday I did the circut class (outdoors) burned 320 calories, I didn't get around to doing anymore yesterday and today I started cramping (probably PMT) so I decided to rest up today and I will smash it at the gym tomorrow for a big cardio session. I bought the Ministry of Sound Running Trax CD yesterday and imported into my iPhone so I am armed and ready for great music to workout to. I bought the CD so that my hubby can listen to it in the car or cycling.

We have a quiet household right now, we looked after my niece last night and then my son wanted to go home with them tonight to stay the night, soooo cute. He is only 3 years old, and loves his cousin.  Worked out well for us, my tyres are flat and I am waiting for some money to clear in my account so I can buy new tyres... My husband now only has to drop off me and not DJ.  Saves us some time really.  So, I am feeling really relaxed right now, don't have to worry about my son. So, tonight I am going to sort through the washing and get that all organised too and get my lunch all packed up and ready, oh and of course my gym bag!! So can't wait to go for a run tomorrow at the gym.

Feeling so focussed

I meant to post something on Wednesday. I did my class which included boxing, kickboxing and muscle definition, god it was good, only burned 340 calories I think much less than the previous week, but it still felt good, still very sore today. I am planning on having a hot bath with epsom salts, bought a really nice one which has essential oils in it, soooo can't wait to soak in that tonight. I might treat myself to 1 small glass of wine tonight as a reward, but stop at that one. The weekend is almost here YAY I am doing the same class tomorrow morning at 8am, I have a feeling he will work me harder tomorrow. I also find out how much his classes are, because I have been going on a two week trial. I love the classes, definitely want to sign up, just hope it is reasonable enough.

My husband won a $50 voucher to spend on anything and is giving it to me, so I am putting it towards some exercise DVDs (Michelle Bridges 3 DVD pack and a pilates DVD) YAY I was originally going to put it towards some shoes but then I figured you can buy them online overseas so cheap now, so I figured I need the DVDs for rainy days so at least I will be prepeared :)

My eating has already improved. Yesterday I noticed at work I wasn't as hungry. My inner labrador was tamed YAY I managed to get through the whole day without wanting to have a chocolate or a cake. I managed to have  Think Green Bar (180 calories) and seriously healthy. I made sure my morning snack was lower in calories to balance it out. I made the Mexican Shepherds Pie last night and got some yummy leftovers for lunch today. YAY hoping there is a green salad at the cafe today so I have a small amount on the side. I always find I am so hungry during the day, so if I can fill up on salad (low calorie items) then I will be fine.  It is a small portion of shepherds pie too.

I need to figure out what to do for dinner tonight, will check out the recipes on 12wbt to see what I can cook tonight.

What a great workout

Wow I pushed myself hard this morning, only burned 340 calories but I felt great. I was doing my punches and kickboxing and I was soooo hard on myself. I kept saying to myself push yourself you worthless piece of crap, come on loser you can do it. I didn't realise how hard I was on myself. I don't believe in myself. I almost broke down in tears this morning because of it. It was a bit of a breakthrough for me. I really need to sit down this afternoon and do some journal writing about why I don't believe in myself and why I think I am such a loser etc.

I am going through a bit of soul searching and figuring out why I self sabotage my results and why I can’t stay committed to things. I lose my willpower and my motivation. Tonight I am going to do some more soul searching through journal writing. I REALLY need to understand why I do the things I do. I have the same habits and lack of motivation and willpower in everything I do, whether it is work, exercise, diet or relationships. I get bored quickly (yes I am a Gemini), so that’s the bonus about this exercise program, there is ALOT of variety for Gemini’s that don’t like to do the same thing and get bored. There is also alot of choices in the recipe index for someone like me who is gluten intolerant. I will be revisiting the pre-season tasks, re-watching the videos and really getting organised this weekend. I want to cook some foods so I have my lunches prepared for next week. This is where I fall off the wagon (during the day). I need something warm and yummy for lunch so I tend to hit the cafe instead of bringing something nutritious and yummy from home. I will make a bit pot of soup this weekend, that was great the other week. I felt very organised. My afternoon snack cravings are the worst!!! My inner labrador is fighting with rope and tugging so hard that I give in to its needs for sugary foods. I need to stop this. Only I can make the change and the difference.  I need to look for a healthy and nutritious snack for the afternoons that will stop my sugary food cravings. I will revisit the snack thread from the 12wbt Weekly Surprise a few weeks ago and jot down some ideas.

I have been feeling very blah lately and down on myself. I know I can do this, I need to believe in myself. I suppose my biggest fear is once I reach my goal how will I maintain it?! Anytime I have lost weight and achieved my goal I put the weight on straight away. I will be signing up for next round because I think that will be what helps me maintain the weight loss once I have achieved it.
It would be good if this site had a diary or something in it so we are more accountable and uploading our food intake and exercise etc everyday, sort of like the Biggest Loser site. I was very accountable when I did that program and got great results because it was all on the one site. I shouldn’t make excuses, My Fitness Pal is a great site to capture my foods etc and I am the only one that can be accountable by tracking my foods. I need to keep a diary when I do succumb to naughty foods and what is going through my mind at the time and why I had to go for that option over something healthy. I think that will also help me.

I also went to the doctor to see re: periods, all good, not pregnant phew!!! just the pill I was on causing issues, so she said to take a break from it. It will be interesting to see how my weight loss goes now without it putting on weight ;) YAY

enough of my babbling, have a great day everyone xxx

Off the pill to lose weight

Decided to get off the pill so I can lose weight. I have put on 3kg with the pill and I can't lose it no matter how much I try with diet and exercise. So, I decided enough was enough. I told my husband he will just have to be careful. The pill has been giving me non-stop problems. The past 3 months on it I have hardly had a proper period. 2 months ago I had them for 2 days very lightly, then last month it was 1.5 days very lightly and this month 2 spots and then that was it. So, I just don't trust it, and what it is doing to me. I am always crampy (no not pregnant) and just feel so bloated 24/7. So, going to speak to the doctor about it to see if I should get a scan done or blood tests.... I feel better after coming off it. I should be able to control my emotions a bit better too.  I weighed myself at the gym and I was 65.5kg!!! the most ever, I haven't been able to lose the weight because of the pill. I know I should weigh myself first thing etc so if I did that I would be around 64kg probably, still not good considering my starting weight was 64kg for the 12 week body transformation. I am starting to get worried that maybe I am pregnant but I can't be, I have no symptoms other than the cramping. No weird cravings, eating the same amounts as normal, no weird smells etc or even a change in my nipple colour. All normal! Except my irregular periods that's what makes me think I need to get a scan done for polycystic ovary syndrome or something. I will ask about it and see what happens. Who knows..... I just hope I am not pregnant it is not an ideal time for me. I want to wait until next year before we have another one. 

My commitment

Here's my revised commitment to the 12wbt program

 

1) Stay motivated - remember goal (size 8, 57kg)

2) Eat clean and gluten free foods

3) Exercise 6 days per week

4) Burn over 500 calories daily / and up to 1000 for Super Saturday sessions

5) Stick to the 12wbt program (meal plans and exercise plan)

6) Think it through, before I eat the treat, be sure I won't regret it (guilt is poison).

7) Exercise first thing in the morning - learn to run program

8) Tame my inner labrador, eat when your belly is hungry not your head.

9) Stay committed and focused

10) Be good to myself - simple treats like clothes as rewards