Feeling so focussed

I meant to post something on Wednesday. I did my class which included boxing, kickboxing and muscle definition, god it was good, only burned 340 calories I think much less than the previous week, but it still felt good, still very sore today. I am planning on having a hot bath with epsom salts, bought a really nice one which has essential oils in it, soooo can't wait to soak in that tonight. I might treat myself to 1 small glass of wine tonight as a reward, but stop at that one. The weekend is almost here YAY I am doing the same class tomorrow morning at 8am, I have a feeling he will work me harder tomorrow. I also find out how much his classes are, because I have been going on a two week trial. I love the classes, definitely want to sign up, just hope it is reasonable enough.

My husband won a $50 voucher to spend on anything and is giving it to me, so I am putting it towards some exercise DVDs (Michelle Bridges 3 DVD pack and a pilates DVD) YAY I was originally going to put it towards some shoes but then I figured you can buy them online overseas so cheap now, so I figured I need the DVDs for rainy days so at least I will be prepeared :)

My eating has already improved. Yesterday I noticed at work I wasn't as hungry. My inner labrador was tamed YAY I managed to get through the whole day without wanting to have a chocolate or a cake. I managed to have  Think Green Bar (180 calories) and seriously healthy. I made sure my morning snack was lower in calories to balance it out. I made the Mexican Shepherds Pie last night and got some yummy leftovers for lunch today. YAY hoping there is a green salad at the cafe today so I have a small amount on the side. I always find I am so hungry during the day, so if I can fill up on salad (low calorie items) then I will be fine.  It is a small portion of shepherds pie too.

I need to figure out what to do for dinner tonight, will check out the recipes on 12wbt to see what I can cook tonight.

What a great workout

Wow I pushed myself hard this morning, only burned 340 calories but I felt great. I was doing my punches and kickboxing and I was soooo hard on myself. I kept saying to myself push yourself you worthless piece of crap, come on loser you can do it. I didn't realise how hard I was on myself. I don't believe in myself. I almost broke down in tears this morning because of it. It was a bit of a breakthrough for me. I really need to sit down this afternoon and do some journal writing about why I don't believe in myself and why I think I am such a loser etc.

I am going through a bit of soul searching and figuring out why I self sabotage my results and why I can’t stay committed to things. I lose my willpower and my motivation. Tonight I am going to do some more soul searching through journal writing. I REALLY need to understand why I do the things I do. I have the same habits and lack of motivation and willpower in everything I do, whether it is work, exercise, diet or relationships. I get bored quickly (yes I am a Gemini), so that’s the bonus about this exercise program, there is ALOT of variety for Gemini’s that don’t like to do the same thing and get bored. There is also alot of choices in the recipe index for someone like me who is gluten intolerant. I will be revisiting the pre-season tasks, re-watching the videos and really getting organised this weekend. I want to cook some foods so I have my lunches prepared for next week. This is where I fall off the wagon (during the day). I need something warm and yummy for lunch so I tend to hit the cafe instead of bringing something nutritious and yummy from home. I will make a bit pot of soup this weekend, that was great the other week. I felt very organised. My afternoon snack cravings are the worst!!! My inner labrador is fighting with rope and tugging so hard that I give in to its needs for sugary foods. I need to stop this. Only I can make the change and the difference.  I need to look for a healthy and nutritious snack for the afternoons that will stop my sugary food cravings. I will revisit the snack thread from the 12wbt Weekly Surprise a few weeks ago and jot down some ideas.

I have been feeling very blah lately and down on myself. I know I can do this, I need to believe in myself. I suppose my biggest fear is once I reach my goal how will I maintain it?! Anytime I have lost weight and achieved my goal I put the weight on straight away. I will be signing up for next round because I think that will be what helps me maintain the weight loss once I have achieved it.
It would be good if this site had a diary or something in it so we are more accountable and uploading our food intake and exercise etc everyday, sort of like the Biggest Loser site. I was very accountable when I did that program and got great results because it was all on the one site. I shouldn’t make excuses, My Fitness Pal is a great site to capture my foods etc and I am the only one that can be accountable by tracking my foods. I need to keep a diary when I do succumb to naughty foods and what is going through my mind at the time and why I had to go for that option over something healthy. I think that will also help me.

I also went to the doctor to see re: periods, all good, not pregnant phew!!! just the pill I was on causing issues, so she said to take a break from it. It will be interesting to see how my weight loss goes now without it putting on weight ;) YAY

enough of my babbling, have a great day everyone xxx

Off the pill to lose weight

Decided to get off the pill so I can lose weight. I have put on 3kg with the pill and I can't lose it no matter how much I try with diet and exercise. So, I decided enough was enough. I told my husband he will just have to be careful. The pill has been giving me non-stop problems. The past 3 months on it I have hardly had a proper period. 2 months ago I had them for 2 days very lightly, then last month it was 1.5 days very lightly and this month 2 spots and then that was it. So, I just don't trust it, and what it is doing to me. I am always crampy (no not pregnant) and just feel so bloated 24/7. So, going to speak to the doctor about it to see if I should get a scan done or blood tests.... I feel better after coming off it. I should be able to control my emotions a bit better too.  I weighed myself at the gym and I was 65.5kg!!! the most ever, I haven't been able to lose the weight because of the pill. I know I should weigh myself first thing etc so if I did that I would be around 64kg probably, still not good considering my starting weight was 64kg for the 12 week body transformation. I am starting to get worried that maybe I am pregnant but I can't be, I have no symptoms other than the cramping. No weird cravings, eating the same amounts as normal, no weird smells etc or even a change in my nipple colour. All normal! Except my irregular periods that's what makes me think I need to get a scan done for polycystic ovary syndrome or something. I will ask about it and see what happens. Who knows..... I just hope I am not pregnant it is not an ideal time for me. I want to wait until next year before we have another one. 

My commitment

Here's my revised commitment to the 12wbt program

 

1) Stay motivated - remember goal (size 8, 57kg)

2) Eat clean and gluten free foods

3) Exercise 6 days per week

4) Burn over 500 calories daily / and up to 1000 for Super Saturday sessions

5) Stick to the 12wbt program (meal plans and exercise plan)

6) Think it through, before I eat the treat, be sure I won't regret it (guilt is poison).

7) Exercise first thing in the morning - learn to run program

8) Tame my inner labrador, eat when your belly is hungry not your head.

9) Stay committed and focused

10) Be good to myself - simple treats like clothes as rewards

It's been a while....

Hi everyone,

I just noticed how long since I have posted in my blog apologies.... and I should keep this up again I haven't been accountable for my food and exercise. As a result I am not losing weight on the scales, but my clothes look better on. I have lost cm in measurements though so that's a bonus.

I am a bit down tonight, I am sooo sore from the class I did yesterday just too unbearable to move let alone exercise again and I my glands are swollen and my energy is low, so I think I am going to rest up tonight and get an early night as well. I just feel so blah tonight. I posted on 12wbt forums to find out how many hours everyone is exercising to get the results they are getting and they are averaging 2 hours per day, at least 500 calories. I am only averaging 1 hour per day and at least 400-450 calories (if cardio) and 250-300 on non-cardio days. So, I need to step it up next week, going to set my alarm 45 mins earlier to do a cardio dvd for 30 mins and just work myself hard, to at least burn 150 calories.... shall see how it goes.

I started preparing my meal plan for the week so I can be super organised even with my snacks. We are tight on the money front this week, so I am looking at food choices that are low on $$ spend.

So glad it is almost the weekend.  Going to do the killer class on Saturday morning as well, this time I will have my heart rate monitor on so I can see how many calories I burn in the class. I am sure it will be up around 600 calories because my heart rate was high up there.

Ok, enough from me, my 3 year-old wants my attention.

Big hugs all

xoxoo

Thursday, 9 June 2011 (ooooh my arms are gonna hurt tomorrow)

OMG just back from the gym and my arms are killing me from my strength training workout. I followed it to a tee including the recommended weights. I noticed I have been using the incorrect weights. Insted of using 4-6kg I have been using 2kg etc so I haven't been pushing myself hard enough in the weight training. My arms are going to be so sore tomorrow.

Just checked the weather forecast for the long weekend and it looks like rain from Saturday to Monday boo hoo so tomorrow I am going to make the most of the sunshine and do a run/walk (5km) followed by a Yoga DVD or something. I can't work out on Saturday, so I am going to make up for it tomorrow. 

I had my vegetable lentil soup today and I am still hungry, didn't have toast with it (forgot to pack it) so thinking of getting myself a salad from the cafe to fill me up and so I don't get tempted at 3pm for food that isn't on the plan ;)

The week 4 plan looks good, I will still have to substitute alot of the meals because of being gluten free.

Loving my workouts

Well I just completed another great workout, I didn't want to stop until I burned 460 calories in my cardio session. I was determined and just pushed myself. I would have reached 500 calories but I was doing my workout in my lunch break.  I felt so good, and even felt good afterwards. 

On Monday, I completed the following timings for my runs/walks:
Run/walk 1 - 5.77km - 51 mins
Run/walk 2 - 5.93km - 57 mins

Today, I completed 5.91km in 50 mins so I have beat my second run/walk from Monday YAY

I am also back down to 63kg which is great. I can really feel my body changing :)

Tuesday, 7 June 2011

Sorry for the lack of posting to my blog everyone, I have been so busy and internet hasn't been working well at home. Last week wasn't a great week for exercising and eating, I put on weight because TTOM approaching this week, any day now, makes me so much more hungry so trying to drink lots of water to take my mind of it.  I have peppermint tea in my draw at work, so plan on having that this afternoon when I get my sweet craving.

I just had a wicked workout at the gym. It was strength training day so did everything on the list, including skipping between each circuit and then 25 mins of cardio. I wasn't going to walk out of the gym until I burnt 300 calories and I did it.

Yesterday, I did a walk/run for 11.7km and burned 780 calories!!! I was so proud of myself, mind you I have blisters on my feet as a result. I do need new sneakers but just can't afford them this month but will definitely buy some next month. I need them before July so I can wear them in before the City to Surf in August. 

I feel so good, much more energy. I am so hungry though, I just want to eat and eat..... TTOM always makes me more hungry (before they come and during) drives me nuts. I haven't even got them yet.... grrrrr

I made a big pot of vegetable and lentil soup yesterday, enough for the rest of the week too, so that's me sorted for lunches this week YAY I need to do this every week, make a soup on the weekend so that way I have my lunches all sorted.